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When does the quest for perfection become a curse?

It's quite possible that Jonathan Trott's problems arose out of a focus on meeting all expectations

Martin Crowe

May 20, 2014

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Jonathan Trott jogs out to resume his career, Warwickshire v Gloucestershire, Edgbaston, April 1, 2014
Jonathan Trott needs to move towards self-acceptance © Getty Images
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When Martin Kaymer won the Players Championship at TPC Sawgrass last week, it was a triumph of progress over perfection. His early rise, then fall, and recent rise again, all within seven years, is a great example of a humble, thoughtful athlete maturing through all kinds of experience, through thick and thin, and finding himself when self-acceptance kicked in.

Less than four years into his career as a professional Kaymer became the world's No. 1, then eight weeks later it was gone. Then he disappeared, emerged briefly as a Ryder Cup hero, and then retreated back into his personal search for perfection.

Until last week. Now he is not only a champion again, he is in full control of who he is and what makes him tick. It's called the maturing process. Kaymer chose to play from his heart, to back his instinct and not his mind. He chose to progress as himself rather than to seek the impossible.

Cricket at the top level, like golf, is a pursuit where the desire to strive for perfection can become a bugbear. Perfection is about thinking of where you want to end up, where you want your game to be on the highest stage. With that comes the danger of dramatically losing ground when the inevitable hiccup or roadblock occurs in the drive towards the elusive perfect game. Aiming to be perfect can be tantamount to reaching for an illusion - a risky business.

When you seek the acme, you expect from yourself a flawless display with no error. That's horrendous pressure to bear. Experience teaches you that it's more meaningful and more achievable when the path taken is a step-by-step journey, a progressive march, with great lessons en route. Progress is maturity, where a crystalline awareness replaces burnout and uncertainty. If you are lucky, experience teaches you before it's too late.

For a while now I have resisted talking about the latest news surrounding Jonathan Trott. I couldn't find the right context in which to express the dilemma I believe he faces. Though I don't know the details, I sense his story is similar to mine.

Firstly, he is too young to retire from playing the game. Trott is a good guy, a steady athlete, a skilful operator. In theory, he has years ahead of him. Yet his mind has been flooded with confusion, and he is unsure how to proceed. He has rightly taken a step away from the spotlight in an attempt to find some clarity.

The key lies in our ability to learn awareness, to sense the right response needed at the right time, which only a steady, growing maturity can provide. With the right advice Kaymer found the right approach, removing the deceiving one. He stepped back and began a slow build, connecting all his resilience. That incredible putt he buried on the penultimate hole captured his journey in a heartbeat.

It appeared, if I may suppose, that the road Trott pursued was that of striving too hard for perfection. This was the one I chose too. It's a road of thorough preparation and exact planning, of expectation and clinical execution. I assume in most cases it becomes all too hard to walk unscathed. It doesn't allow for sensing, anticipating or intuition, and for trusting the instinctive flair that is within.

Chasing perfection demands detailed execution every moment. As a result, it's played out in the mind, over and over again. In batting, that is a very fine line to walk. It is a brutally unforgiving and exhausting approach.

From my own experience, when I replaced Viv Richards at Somerset, I felt I needed to match the great man to justify the difficult decision to remove him and Joel Garner as the overseas pros. Within weeks of the decision, I played the West Indies side, which contained those two, in a three-Test series in early 1987 at home. I set myself the goal of a hundred in each match. After that, as the county season began, I set the goal of topping the 1987 county averages as a way to silence the detractors and put an end to the death threats once and for all. Then, as the year wore on, I went after the perfect record by attempting 4000 runs in a calendar year. It became a merciless pursuit of perfection.

If I had my time again I would drop the grand plan of searching for perfection all the time, realising the stupidity of it all, and instead would settle for a long, slow maturing, a fermentation of acceptance and joy at doing what I loved to do

By the end of 1987 the ghost was up. I couldn't think or move. I was not only physically burnt out, I was mentally spent and emotionally shot. I was forced to take most of 1988 off, referring to doctors and specialists to explain the collapse, and never returned to Somerset or county cricket again. I contemplated retirement at age 26.

I had simply chosen the wrong approach. Unfortunately it was one I never changed, and one that ultimately ended my career early - in tears, not surprisingly.

Trott's departure from the game does not seem far different from mine. He, I suspect, thought, analysed, ruminated and stressed way too much. Too much of a need of the end result, rather than just enjoying and adapting to the process of progressive growth. If I had my time again I would drop the grand plan of searching for perfection all the time, realising the stupidity of it all, and instead would settle for a long, slow maturing, a fermentation of acceptance and joy at doing what I loved to do, which was simply to bat for my team, in my favourite sport, under a hot sun.

Perhaps Trott fell into the same trap, not understanding that progress, even a slow grind back and forth from time to time, is all part of the human movement. He, again as I did, wanted to meet every expectation, and in doing so, got caught in the lure of needing perfection to silence the constant call to score daddy hundreds. In this day and age, there is no rest for the top player, no chance to drop back a level and regroup and recharge. The scheduling is extraordinary.

Trott started out with a fine Test century on debut, and that was the only currency he knew would suffice. I too was obsessed with reaching three figures at all costs, to make up for the obvious failures that came with being a batsman, failures that led to crippling criticism, which I crazily took personally. When you have self-acceptance, you don't need to rely on external judgement. Therein lies the key to one's peace.

Maybe in time Trott will venture back to Warwickshire and start from scratch - perhaps some second-team games to begin - and look to build a new game, with one eye on progress and the other on simply seeing the ball and moving towards it, for the sheer fun of it. In that way, he may find the will to slowly move again towards who he really is, and to be happy in the knowledge that life is about loving what you do and doing what you love, while gaining fresh wisdom and maturity. As he does, progress towards self-acceptance will become the driving force.

Like Kaymer discovered with his awakening, Trott needs time to find that source himself. Once recaptured, with sights lowered, he could find his natural passion for playing come back.

Martin Crowe, one of the leading batsmen of the late '80s and early '90s, played 77 Tests for New Zealand

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Posted by android_user on (May 23, 2014, 6:45 GMT)

Martin have respected you for your batting skills and captaincy but this ia an altogether new dimension to you. Excellent writing and so true, straight from the heart. a person needs to be very brave like you to reveal so candidly. Your articles although talk about cricket, they are valid in day to day life as well. Best wishes to you to convert such gems into a book, I would be one of the first buy.

Posted by __PK on (May 21, 2014, 21:52 GMT)

As usual a thoughtful, insightful, well-written article from Martin. I'm just concerned that, having resisted the impulse to write about Trott, he's finally given us something half-baked in desperation. Really, this is an article about Martin Crowe, with only a very tenuous and speculative link to Trott. A good article, but it has little to do with Trott.

Posted by   on (May 21, 2014, 20:52 GMT)

Fantastic article Martin! I'm really struck by the clarity with which your ideas flow onto the page. Not just in this article ,but the several previous ones too! Keep it up. I hope I haven't cast the first stone of perfection in your writing abilities (Touch wood)!

Posted by IndianInnerEdge on (May 21, 2014, 13:00 GMT)

This article was as eloquent&d elegant as Hogan's batting....straight from the heart. Actually, much of this is relevant in real life as well, lots of people in high stres s jobs actually burnout after facing relentless pressure day in& day out in the whole business of feeding their families. Enjoyed the absolute honesty depicted in this article. I hope further down the line either hogan or someone like aakash chopra or Ed smith writes about the pressure brought upon a cricketer by the media hype&hoopla which eventually leads to their burnout. For eg Rahul Dravid in 2007 resigned from indian captaincy& said that ' Much of the joy had gone out of the job"-i feel at that stage why did'n some journalist interview him&ask him specifically what changed for Dravid? Surely Dravid's answers would have thrown better light on the situation. At least now the media is acknowledging that players also suffer from burnouts....hope all goes well with trott...wishing him all the best from an indian fan

Posted by android_user on (May 21, 2014, 12:38 GMT)

Put simply 'your will to succeed must be greater than your fear of failure' its not perfection thats always required but a willingness to allow yourself to perform and enjoy doing so.

Posted by joytheone on (May 21, 2014, 12:34 GMT)

nicely presented the trauma of the players from the burden of expectations! This is the reason why I respect players like Tendulkar and Dravid soo much..they had huge expectations of the 1 billion people on there shoulders still they managed to handle that perfectly with a smile on there faces ... and continued to deliver there best for such a long period of time. I think Trott should go and have a word with Tendulkar or Dravid..bcoz no one have ever handled such a pressure of being an international cricketer for such a long period of time!!

Posted by espncricinfomobile on (May 21, 2014, 11:56 GMT)

Great article. Martin Crowe is developing into one of the best writers in world sport. No speculation, hyperbole or nonsense. Analysis plus experience equals real insight.

Posted by Amit_13 on (May 21, 2014, 9:26 GMT)

No great man, sporting or otherwise, has judged himself by his goals and achievements. They all looked within to maximise what they had and developed an understanding of their self.

Its always the journey and never the destination that makes for interesting sport. A fine example of collective goals of perfection would be the England team. Under the microscope for every living moment. Yet that perfection is yet to materialise in silverware. The recent Ashes was always coming. Trott, unfortunately, just became a face for it.

The other end is NZC and SLC, excellent tournament teams... Always finish very high in world events. NZC = sum is greater than its parts, collectively efficient! SLC = acceptance of their cricketing diversity.

Posted by RG2008 on (May 21, 2014, 7:50 GMT)

Great article. Compassionate, insightful and intelligent. More of this kind of thoughtful journalism from both Martin Crowe and Cricinfo!

Posted by NVGRam on (May 21, 2014, 7:26 GMT)

Martin - thanks for putting in words what many of us have gone through (viz. quest for perfection - not necessarily in cricket/sport) without getting desired results. If you can convey a message to J.Trott, suggest to try meditation. (Aussie legend Greg Chappell is a votary & practitioner of meditation) Look forward to J.Trott's comeback

Posted by Spinoza on (May 21, 2014, 6:44 GMT)

They key to recovering from any slump from any field is to achieve simplicity. Do one or two things that work well and do it consistently. And surround this with a lot of fun. The fun means that while you are recovering you are enjoying every day and you look forward to each new day not as an extension of the previous one but an entirely new experience, This approach allows you to have a fresh outlook to every new surprise that life throws up. This approach allows you to climb up but never down.

Posted by NeilBurns166 on (May 21, 2014, 6:24 GMT)

Martin Crowe's insightfulness about top performance in elite sport, and honesty about self, make his writing as much of a gift to the game as his batting technique enabled the purists the opportunity to purr back in the day. I regard it as a privilege to have been his teammate at Somerset and witnessed some outstanding innings, and been part of some wonderful conversations with him. This article speaks to the need to empower emerging sportspeople to focus on 'Inner Fitness' to balance the 'Outer Fitness' of physical training and skill development. Nurturing the love of self, and others, as well as developing love for an activity must be the core of learning programmes.

Posted by   on (May 21, 2014, 5:33 GMT)

Great Article Martin, absolutely Superb. This is more suitable for a motivational speech. The flow of the article starting from the heading then to experience of Kaymer / trott and your own was so smooth, The awareness you have expressed is not only limited to sport but to life as well

Posted by Gmale on (May 21, 2014, 4:37 GMT)

Trott needs to call Viru. Keep it simple stupid!

Posted by Insult_2_Injury on (May 21, 2014, 3:23 GMT)

Nicely put Martin. Much is said about the pressures on players to accept their role model status and display it to the satisfaction of the media. However We can never actually know how an individual 'should' cope with the weight of expectation placed on themselves. Martin has given us a little insight. Trott & Trescothick amongst othes may walk away when they struggle, others may ask their brother to bowl an underarm because they are so exhausted and 'game' fatigued. I guess the question is how would you cope when you feel you aren't meeting your own expectations?

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