'I have decided to return to my natural game'
Misbah-ul-Haq talks about his approach to the captaincy, the criticism he has copped for his defensive style, and the lessons from the drubbing in South Africa

"It is pointless to show unnecessary aggression" • Associated Press
My career has a lot of exceptions. I had a late debut in first-class and international cricket. Then the 2007 comeback, which was exceptional as it's hard to come back at that age. So I don't see age as a barrier in any way. I should be looking at how fit I am with regard to my endurance and performance. My body and mind are fully supporting me, and this is the reason I continue. It's all about how comfortable a player is with his age.
It depends on how committed you are with yourself, and what you are willing to do for yourself. I was really disappointed that I wasn't consistent with my performance, and was thinking of quitting. But it was tough to call it a day on such a poor note. I went back to domestic cricket, rediscovered myself, and realised that I still had the passion and the interest. So I decided to play and leave on a high note.
Indeed [it was] a huge responsibility. It was a really difficult situation for Pakistan cricket. But it's unfair for me to take the entire credit. Everyone played their role: the board, the coaching staff, and the new players. I was given a task to rebuild everything from scratch with a group that was new and inexperienced. But the results after all those debacles - in 2009 and 2010 - were incredible.
In 2007 my role in the team was a different one. As a No. 6 batsman, I was aggressive in the presence of Mohammad Yousuf and Younis Khan - who were taking most of the responsibility to play out all the overs and keep rotating the strike. But with Yousuf being dropped, it was a huge gap to fill, and the responsibility came on me. I was given a role when I led the team after the spot-fixing fiasco: to stay in the middle till the end. And this is the reason for the phase when I held my shots and didn't play to my strengths. When you play like this, you lose your confidence and can't give your best. But now I have given this approach a rethink and have decided to return to my natural game.
I understand people in Pakistan are very concerned about their cricket stars. These days cricket is being discussed and players are being analysed by everyone, irrespective of whether they understand the game or not. But as national cricketers, we are used to it. One must have belief in oneself. I do assess the criticism but also evaluate if there is any hidden interest behind it. If it's a logical and fair point, I do consider it and try to address it on the field.
I left for one simple reason: I wanted to give a youngster a chance to fill my place. Pakistan cricket needs more players in their set-up for the future. Their development is also important, and T20 is a format where you can easily try out a youngster. Once you identify a future prospect, you can try him out in the T20 format and then decide to pick him for Tests or ODIs.
"Asad Shafiq is a sort of player who can give stability to the middle order. He has got a sound temperament and is technically good, someone who can replace a player like Younis or me in the team"
Leaving any format of the game isn't easy. Especially for me, since T20 was the format that had a significant impact on my career. In 2007 I made a name for myself because of T20. So it was a tough call, but I had to take a decision for the benefit of the team and future of Pakistan cricket. I continue playing T20 for the regional team and leagues but have no intention of returning to the Pakistan T20 squad.
Every player is different. In a team of 11, each player has his role. Not every player can bat with a strike rate of 150. Afridi has his own strengths but also has negative points. That's the case with every player, including me. As a player you need to understand your game. If you go beyond the limits of your role, you are actually not doing what is good for yourself and for the team. You can't always win by being aggressive.
Maintaining a balance is very important. You have to be sensible enough to see the requirement. It is pointless to show unnecessary aggression, to attack when it's time to absorb pressure and stay on the back foot. It's a strategic thing that you have to manipulate according to the situation. And ultimately it's the results that matter. When you are winning, there is no point in showing off with unnecessary aggression.
At the moment I don't think anyone is ready. In Pakistan we need someone who has experience, and we need to develop a player's captaincy skills before handing him the responsibility. [Mohammad] Hafeez, in the meantime, has a strong case because he has ample experience of captaining various sides at the domestic level.
Asad Shafiq. He is a sort of player who can give stability to the middle order. He has got a sound temperament and is technically good, someone who can replace a player like Younis or me in the team.
Over the last two years things have been going well but Pakistan cricket has to lift its domestic structure. We can't rectify the limitations and shortfalls without mending the structure. The current set of youngsters, and those who are coming up, is seriously suffering with no international cricket being played on home soil.
In the last five or six years we have lost so many established players in unexpected ways. Some retired, some were banned for match-fixing, and some went out of contention for reasons unknown. It's not easy to replace players like Inzamam, Yousuf and Shoaib Akhtar.
I have not taken a final decision. I'm happy with my fitness, form, and most importantly, passion for the game. My body is responding to what I want it to do. Obviously I can't be with the team all my life. But I haven't thought of the long term. When I feel I am losing interest in cricket, I will think of parting ways.
Indeed it was a blow. Amir and Asif were ruling while Butt was getting mature as a player. Replacing such players takes time. But in the end we have to rely on our available resources and plan for the future, hoping that they will give their best.
Behind the scenes you try hard to improve but at the same time you have to keep in mind the quality of batsmen we have. Most of the batsmen are young and haven't played a lot of cricket. They lack experience. Of the six or seven regular batsmen, there are hardly one or two who have some experience. Even I haven't played a lot of cricket. We don't have star batsmen like most other teams. Nasir [Jamshed], Asad, Umar [Akmal] and many others are still young. They will gain experience with time.
I have always tried to avoid conflicts. After the [spot-fixing] fiasco, there was a need for stability and to avoid disputes at any level. Obviously every player has his own mindset and a captain needs to be flexible to deal with this. We needed solutions rather than leaving things unsolved and making them more complex.
That was a really disappointing series. Teams visiting South Africa are always uncomfortable and we knew what to expect. We almost caught them by surprise in the second Test and that showed us that this side has the capability to turn things around. We should have grabbed the opportunity to go 1-1. We were flat and, no doubt, they were the better side playing at home.
A big no. I've always looked ahead and never tried to turn back. Sometimes things do get to you and you think about the past, but I have tried to make my future better rather than living in the past.
Umar Farooq is ESPNcricinfo's Pakistan correspondent. He tweets here