Angelo Mathews: 'I lost a lot of hair during my captaincy'

I'd like to start off by thanking the Almighty, and then my parents, my wife, my kids, my siblings - everyone who has sacrificed a lot for me. Starting from school, I got every opportunity to study and excel in sports. I'm very thankful to my college, all my teachers, past presidents, rectors, my coaches from under-13 to first XI.

I got those opportunities, and then I was able to excel and get myself to achieve the target of any cricketer's dream - playing for the national team. I was suddenly called up to a team that I used to watch on TV. Those were my heroes. The next minute I'm with them, getting myself ready to play again. I was shocked. But the seniors helped me feel at home.

I didn't actually think about my workload management. As I said, I've seen a stat where from 2010 to 2015 I have played the most number of games in the entire world. So that speaks for itself.

I would say the only other regret I have in my career is that I couldn't achieve the 10,000-run mark. But every other thing, I've given my best in every situation. I've tried to win games for my country in every situation. Giving 100% to your team in every single game is another thing, so I was wanting to play all three formats and contribute with bat, ball, and in the field, in every single game. I was absolutely going for it.

Obviously, I could have done things better. It was in 2018 that I sat down with Dilshan Fonseka (men's team trainer) and looked at the amount of injuries that I had. He told me that my body couldn't bear it. So I changed everything - the way I eat, my lifestyle, and my training.

That was one of the standouts in my career, I would say. I remember quite a few innings where I was also surprised with how well I batted, and that is definitely one of the innings. That England tour was a very heated competition between the two teams, especially starting from the one-dayers where they were targeting me as the captain. I took that energy and I transferred it into my focus and performances and that helped me play that aggressive sort of cricket. I'm pretty happy with what we did on that tour, as a team, and for me as a cricketer and captain.

It all started with that mankading incident in the one-dayers. I'd say we'd given them enough warnings, especially in the previous game, where they were stealing quite a few runs. Both teams were grumpy. The laws weren't that strict [on player behaviour] back then, so we exchanged a lot of words.

No, every single captain goes through this. I've lost a lot of hair during the tenure. Not many captains have a lot of hair left. Whether you're captaining Sri Lanka or wherever, there's always that added responsibility. Everyone is watching you, everyone is waiting to hear from you. So that sometimes can be a bit of a pain, but I enjoyed it. Sometimes I did feel like I wanted to give up. But then I said to myself, 'You've been given this opportunity. Try and take the team to another level.'

No, I think you shouldn't be holding on to things. You need to learn to let go. You don't need to react. I've been brought up in a way where my parents and in my school, everyone has taught me to understand and then respect people. Later, things got a bit too ugly. Let's say, whatever, whoever said about me, I didn't really care because I know people have their own opinions.

Whatever the selectors and the coach decide is out of my control, so I was just trying to control what was in my control. In the heat of the moment, I did some push-ups, and I did react. But I didn't want to react like that without performing.

chuckles I hadn't bowled in about six months, but I knew [captain] Dimuth Karunaratne was running out of options because all our top bowlers were finishing their quota of overs. And then I said to Dimuth, bowl our best bowlers for now and try and get this wicket. If in case, if they don't get out and if you're stuck with a couple of overs, I can still bowl you those two overs.

Unfortunately the quota was finished with our best bowlers, and then I had to eventually roll my arm over. I think the experience paid off. I knew I couldn't bowl onto Nicholas Pooran's legs because he was so strong - he was just picking everything up from his legs and hitting it over the boundaries. So I knew that I had to go wider to him, and then I just went wide to him, and he just nicked it.

I'd say yes, but then all the way until 2018, I was playing all three formats and didn't really have the opportunity of being able to block out time for just training. You need at least six to eight weeks for that. Once I started getting injured constantly, I thought I needed to slow things down and think of what I actually needed to do rather than just playing. That's when that meeting with Dilshan happened. I was doing a lot of static training, but needed to change to a lot of functional training. I made that change and feel absolutely brilliant.

laughs Yes, I'm feeling good. I just want to inspire the younger generation. Fitness plays a major part nowadays because of the volume of cricket that we play. I understand the value of being fit. I just want to encourage the younger generation to keep pushing.

I think that was one of the times that I did speak quite a lot because I was angry and I felt disappointed. I hadn't done anything wrong. When I showed the video to the match referee and the umpires post-game, they realised it and said sorry. But that was a very crucial game for us and I felt like I was targeted. I don't know what prompted them to appeal.

I felt that the umpires should have got involved a little bit more. I certainly didn't cross the two-minute mark when I went to the crease. It was obvious that my helmet broke at the time and not before I walked into the ground. So it was a fair reason for me to get angry.

There was one phase where some of the past cricketers were coming out and saying unnecessary stuff [about corruption] without evidence. That really hurt the entire team. You shouldn't drag the players into it. I just urge them to produce evidence in front of everyone, but don't just say things for the sake of it, because it tarnishes the team's reputation. This was around 2018, when the big allegations were happening and the ICC had started an investigation in Sri Lanka, and they went through the entire team. It was a very disturbing thing for everyone.

There will always be attempts to topple the administration, and that's not our business. But they shouldn't be dragging players into it.

Now, there is a bill passed anyway (Sri Lanka has criminalised sports fixing), so if someone talks rubbish we can raise it according to the law. Back then we didn't have anything.

Yes, because it stops the rubbish that people say. If they want to say something and have evidence, then no problem.

To finish third on the list of Sri Lanka's Test run-scorers, behind two of the greatest that have ever played for Sri Lanka (Kumar Sangakkara and Mahela Jayawardene) - that makes me really proud. I know there is regret about 10,000, but I'm happy reaching 8000-odd. Due to injuries I couldn't play a lot of Test cricket as well. But I'm fortunate that despite that, I was able to play 118 Tests.

Yeah, they're my two top ones. Because winning against England in England is a very tough ask.

Against Australia, wherever you play, it's going to be a challenge. We all know that they are a very strong team. And then to beat them 3-0, when they were number one at the time as well, with a young set of guys, was incredible. Kusal Mendis and Dhananjaya de Silva were performing, and we were able to complete a whitewash with Rangana Herath leading the bowling.

I haven't decided. Cricket has given me everything. I would like to give back in whatever capacity. I'll still keep playing for a year or two in leagues and other stuff if that comes my way. I feel I can still contribute to the game.

I'd also like to thank SLC for all their support from 2008 till now. I'd love to thank the support staff since 2008 as well. A special mention to all the back-room coaches at the high performance centre, and all the other stuff there - the masseurs and masseuses, and the physios - everyone. Day in day out, they have helped me personally, and they have helped the teams, without much recognition. I'd like to extend my heartfelt gratitude to all the back-end staff at HPC. They've worked extremely hard to keep us fit and keep us in good form.