I never get angry. Nor am I now. I was told about this selection decision in South Africa, but I didn't tell anyone that till now. Now that the team is out, I have only answered questions that people have asked me.
After the South Africa series, Rahul bhai [Dravid, the head coach] called me to the room and said, "Wriddhi, I don't know how to say this, but for some time now the selectors and the team management have been wanting to look at a new face (as wicketkeeper). Because you are not our first-choice wicketkeeper, because you haven't been playing for a while, we want to use this time to groom a younger wicketkeeper." I said "okay, no issues".
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Ten-twelve days later, I got a call from Chetan Sharma [chairman of selectors]. He asked me if I was playing Ranji Trophy. I said I hadn't decided yet. Then he went on to tell me what Rahul bhai had said. So I asked him if this decision was for just this series or for the upcoming series against Australia and England too. Then he paused for a couple of seconds and said, "From now on, you will not be considered."
"If they were going to consider me after this series, then why would Rahul bhai say, you can take 'some other' decision if you want?"Wriddhiman Saha
It has got nothing to do with the selection. Some time ago my wife fell sick with dengue, and she hasn't recovered fully. We have two young kids too. So I have to give my family some time too. I told the Cricket Association of Bengal clearly that I was not playing for personal reasons.
When the selectors and the coach say they have been thinking about this for a while, it is not an isolated call. It means other officials - president, vice-president, etc - are in the loop too.
I don't know all that. I don't complain about selection. If I am selected, I try to deliver. If I am dropped, I don't say why I have not been picked. If I am not picked now, the team must not be needing me, which is why they have decided. I am not going to say anything against it.
They said performance or fitness is not an issue. "We just want to look at a new face. You are with the squad, not getting to play, so we will not consider you 'from now on'." So if I play Ranji or not, if I score double-centuries or triple-centuries, "from now on" means out. That means we will not consider you from now on.
If they are saying fitness and performance are not an issue, what is the issue? Age.
No. Not after that text.
Sidharth Monga is an assistant editor at ESPNcricinfo