'I've let go of that fear of failing'
AB de Villiers analyses his batting and hits several theories out of the park
Lots of guys have played a part in helping me, but ultimately I educated through the hardships myself. I went through the bad form myself. And I can mention 200 people who have had an influence on my career and my batting. I literally can. I can name all of them.
No, not really. Understanding my strengths and weaknesses has been the biggest thing. I didn't understand these kinds of things when I came into international cricket. My technique and my talent have always been there, and just understanding what kind of shots I can play on different wickets. Getting to know my own game has been the biggest thing. Some guys take longer to know their own game. Some guys pick it up very quickly.
Two thousand and eight. That's when I started to develop my defensive game. It became a lot more difficult to get me out. That's been key to me.
I don't think there were too many things I didn't know about. A lot of things came naturally to me. I learnt my defensive game in 2008. That was new to me. Before that I played for four and a half, five years without knowing exactly what was going on. Still, having the ability, the talent, to clear the boundary when I needed to, playing with a very competitive edge, loved winning from a very young age. I understood how teams worked from the word go, and a lot of things I did know, except for my strengths and weaknesses as a batsman.
I felt it was difficult to keep me from scoring, but it was easy to get me out because eventually I would make a mistake because of my attacking nature. So just having that hunger to eliminate those kind of weaknesses.
I was getting out lbw a lot. I think people still try it these days, but I think I am a lot better now. I think in 2005, Mark Boucher approached me and he told me that a lot of teams were going to try to get me out lbw because they feel I am weak straight. He planted a little seed in my head that defensively I am not very good. All it takes is to bowl straight at me for long periods of time and I will get out. So I wanted to eliminate that, and I had the hunger to turn that around.
"When you get to know your own game really well, things happen a little slower. Pressure situations don't fly past you. You have more time to make good decisions."
Just hard work, I think. Lots of hours of practice. Hunger. The desire to turn it around. It was never part of my game before, to play a ball late and to block it. I always wanted to either look to score a boundary or come down really hard at the ball.
I was just thinking of surviving. I had no idea what was going on.
Yeah. Absolutely. No doubt about it. I'd definitely find a way to get as close. My motto would be, if I bat through I would come close anyway. I know how to score my runs without taking too many risks. Similar to what we did against India at the Wanderers.
Exactly like I told you now. I tried to bat through, knowing that we [Faf du Plessis was the other batsman] would both score naturally, at a good rate, which we did. There is always a time when the bowlers start feeling a bit of pressure, the momentum turns around.
No. Not at all. I knew we could bat the overs out. It was just one day. We had more than one day at Adelaide [South Africa played out 148 overs for just 248 runs to hang on for a draw]. We knew we were capable of doing it. No, the time was definitely not a problem. It was difficult but we knew it was possible for us to bat through. The thing about the Wanderers is, it is difficult to stop runs. Knowing that we just needed to bat time, it showed we kept scoring without really trying too much.
My mindset in all three formats, in any situation, is exactly the same. I just want to get myself in, get myself a nice foundation to hopefully attack and dominate the bowlers. After a period what I call - let's say a period when you have got to earn the right to dominate the bowling. In some innings it takes one ball, sometimes it takes 10 overs, sometimes five overs… In the warm-up game against not such a strong team it took me more or less 15 overs to feel that I am in. Whereas against the first [full-strength] Indian team that I played in Mumbai [in the ODI], after two balls I felt in. It changes.
Just a moment you feel comfortable. You have seen what they are throwing at you, you have encountered all of it, they haven't got you out yet and then it takes an over from a bowler to show a bit of weakness, and then I get a bit of momentum on my side and that's when I start going.
No, there is no shot. It's just a feeling of understanding the flow of the game, of understanding what's required, and then feeling comfortable within my game plans to achieve that.
I play for the team. I can leave the answer right there. If I get 30 off 200, [it is] because that's what's required for the team. In order for us to win matches, draw matches, whatever is necessary.
Yeah, but it will allow you if you have got the desire and the commitment to the team. Then you find a way to make it work.
I am serious. Not even joking. Sounds like the humble and noble answer, but it's a fact.
Then the others must, maybe, start playing for the team.
I just try to feel good. I try to just cover the bases. I don't practise a lot of shots. I keep it very simple. I hit a few straight balls. If I got out in a certain way and I feel uncomfortable about a certain shot, I maybe hit a few of those shots. I keep it very short and sweet and intense. I try and create the same kind of intensity that I would play with in the middle. I try to put the bowlers under the same kind of pressure when I am in the nets. I bat for 10, 15, sometimes 20 minutes at most. That's it. That's all I practise.
Never played a reverse sweep in my life before in the nets.
[Smiles] The desire to score boundaries. If it's big enough, you'll find a way.
It was very difficult, yes. I felt a lot of pressure. I just didn't want us to lose the Test match. I knew it was going to take a big effort from us to get through that one. But I also knew that if we fought for long enough, it would turn around eventually, which it did in the next Test match.
"I wanted a competitive game of cricket. When I didn't feel the competition there, it was difficult for me to get going. Cause, why am I required? I mean I don't have to perform"
I don't know. It's similar kind of commitment to the cause. I think it's similar except for the fact that I didn't spend as much time at the crease as I would for a double-hundred. A double-hundred takes 300-350 balls.
I don't think I have ever scored a double in 150. I am capable of that, but it has never been required of me to do that.
[Laughs] No, I think my record shows I never get myself up when there is nothing on the line. There has always got to be something on the line. I think in the beginning - no offence against Bangladesh and Zimbabwe, they are much better teams now, but back in the day I could never get myself going against those teams. Because I never felt that challenge. We were always going to win those games. I never felt that I needed to have an impact in order for us to win a game. Those are the kind of things I am talking about. That gets me going. I want big-pressure moments, I want to feel that I can make a difference in us winning the game.
It's not the be-all and end-all. Lots of guys have shown in the past that technique is not everything. There are lots more important things than technique. I don't think my technique has always been perfect, and it's still not perfect. There's still areas that I can work on. But I feel comfortable. And that's the most important thing. So I think technique is not that important. There are a lot of other areas of your game that are more important. Why do you get out sometimes? Why do you perform sometimes? That's much more important than technique.
You get different levels of risk. You get high risk, you get low risk. You got low risk with big reward. You get high risk with low reward. Those are the silly shots. I don't know, I think there is risk in a lot of things. Just a matter of how much risk there is. Not scared of it anymore. I used to be maybe a little bit scared of taking risks when I was younger, not knowing what kind of impact it will have on my career. Now, I think, in the last few years, four, five, six, even seven years, I have let go of that fear of failing or not succeeding. Knowing that there are way more important things in life than just playing cricket and performing. Understanding that makes you a better cricketer already.
It's a build-up. I get the feeling. I don't know, it changes. Sometimes before the bowler has bowled, sometimes while he is running in. It changes. Sometimes in the first over that I face, I feel that in a few overs' time I will be able to reverse-sweep the guy. It is never the same.
No it's similar. Similar. Same kinds of risks. You can still top-edge the ball. You can get out lbw.
Nah, similar amount of risk. All the ways of getting out are the same. Just a matter of whether you can execute it properly.
Similar. A little bit less than my right.
Very basic. Watch the ball. The other day in the warm-up game, I was telling Dane Vilas, who was batting with me at the time, that the last few overs I forgot to watch the ball. That's 100% my first thing I think about.
I have to remind myself sometimes. When I am not batting well, I am forgetting to watch the ball.
Nah, not really. I have played enough now to understand when to drive risky shots away and when to go after them. It is just experience. When you get to know your own game really well, things happen a little slower. Pressure situations don't fly past you. It really slows down a lot more. You have more time to make good decisions. Sometimes it will come off, sometimes it will not.
I watch every ball. I try and get as much information as possible. Every ball. That's one of the most important things.
I play intensely, I don't watch as intensely as I play. I do keep an eye on the game and try to figure out what will be the best way to approach my innings.
Every game. Every single game. Every single time I play, doesn't matter if it is South Africa or not, every time I walk out there, I feel like I can get out for nothing. Every single game I can play. And it will never change.
There are lots. I don't want to talk about it because then the bowlers might start bowling in different areas to me. Definitely a few shots that I am weaker with than others, but the minute I am in the mode of dominating the bowlers, then I am pretty strong everywhere.
Any player can be a freak when he is on top of the bowling attack. When he feels like he is on top of the world. In a situation in a game, I have felt it sometimes, but a lot of other players have too. Even bowlers. Dale Steyn will be able to tell you that. Some of his five-fors, he was unstoppable. He felt like a freak.
I believe I am strong mentally. My breaking points might be bigger than most players. I think it's because of the way I grew up with my two older brothers. They pushed my limits quite often - once every day, I think! I think that played a big role in my breaking point being bigger than most players. Not all players. There are lots of mentally very tough players that I have played against and with. But I'd like to think that I am a fighter, and that I don't just give up when things don't go my way.
The crowd definitely helps a little bit. It urges me on. I always felt, when I was growing up, I always felt like I was going to perform in front of a crowd. I didn't know what I was going to be, but I always had those voices in my head. Knocking balls on the wall with my tennis racquet, I could always imagine a crowd around me and cheering me on. It is amazing that it came through.
Not much. It's a very nice milestone that I have seen celebrated a lot in the past.
Sidharth Monga is an assistant editor at ESPNcricinfo