'I'm going to enjoy watching the young guys have a crack'
Chris Martin looks back on a 13-year career career: from shouldering the New Zealand attack to match-winning spells against South Africa, and his endearing batting skills

Chris Martin: "The series against Australia [2011] was probably what made me play another couple of years." • AFP
I think I've probably known for a good six to twelve months that the passion and desire wasn't quite there and it was time to get out. I did want to get out by walking off the park in a Test match, so I stuck in there and gave that a good nudge, but the odds are that a 38-year-old around New Zealand's bowling group at the moment isn't really required. I'm going to sit back and enjoy watching the young guys have a crack.
Yeah, and it's nice to see a group of bowlers coming through. Watching the good sides over the years, they tend to have a pack, a nice steady rotation of guys that can put pressure on each other to succeed and complement each other. I think Australia showed that with various people around Glenn McGrath and Shane Warne, they had guys like Jason Gillespie and Michael Kasprowicz and Brett Lee, and New Zealand, in general, have had a bit of a revolving door of pace bowlers over the years. I'm probably the only one who really stuck it out for any length of time. But I'd like to see this group play together for another six to eight years, it would certainly make the captain's job a lot easier.
I am pretty pleased. I was never the most skillful or naturally talented, but I did have enough skill and enough talent, and with hard work and determination I was able to stick in there and prove to myself that Test cricket was something that I was good at and enjoyed. I'm pleased to be on the table among some of our better players with the ball.
I had a good Test match comeback against South Africa at Eden Park, where I got 11 for the match. We ended up with a Test win, which for New Zealand is pretty few and far between. It's never about that personal stuff, but if that helps us win a game then it definitely sticks in the memory. I had another game against India in India a couple of years ago when I got a five-for in a short space of time. I will remember that very fondly, because that's not a place you go to as a fast bowler and expect to do well.
It's a bit strange with the balls these days, sometimes you turn up and the ball just does crazy things and you're not actually doing that much different. If it hoops, then you've got to make hay when that happens.
My style of bowling, bringing the ball back into some of their right-handers with their forward press, was helpful, as well as straightening the odd one for the edge. To the left-handers, in particular, I've always swung the ball from the stump line away from them. Smith, with the way he plays and closes the bat, he found me pretty tough to handle at times. Mentally you have to bring your A-game against the South Africans, because they're such hard-nosed competitors. They had the better of us on most occasions, but every now and then personally I had good days against them.
Over time, I did have aspirations to at least make it a little less horrendous to watch
Yeah, there are certain techniques that really hate facing me. I think Phil, with his feet not really moving and not quite knowing where his off-pole was, he was having a tough series. That series against Australia was probably what made me play another couple of years. I thought after winning in Hobart, that kind of success of a New Zealand side beating a quality Australian side is something you want to taste again. So I was keen to stick in there for another couple of years, especially with the bowling group we had.
We were playing against a mortal Australian side rather than an immortal Australian side, which I had the brunt of for most of my career. You want to test yourself against the best but the Australian side [of past years] was something quite special. It was a tough period for New Zealand against Australia, but hopefully we can put up a bit more fight over the next few years.
People who pick up length very quickly. Adam Gilchrist and Ricky Ponting were the two who could make you feel very ordinary very quickly. A lot of people say that about the batsmen who tend to take slight risks against you and put you off your game. Other players do it in different ways. A guy like Jacques Kallis will grind you down and you could still be bowling to him six or seven sessions later. At various times, you bump into a guy who is at his peak, and I bumped into Ricky and Adam at their peak. They were both pretty scary, along with Matty Hayden. He was another imposing guy to bowl to.
The thing about playing for the one-day side is they tend to get slightly better results and that builds a good team culture and environment. They always seemed to be having a bit more fun than the Test guys. But I think over time, I had more breaks and more opportunities to stay strong and fit and play quite a good role in the Test side because of that. There's a catch there in terms of income, but I think the way it panned out my main skill was bowling and I couldn't hit a lot with the bat and in the field, so it was realistic that I just played that one format for quite a while.
Absolutely, it's human nature to be embarrassed by something you're completely inept at. Over time, I did have aspirations to at least make it a little less horrendous to watch. I was just no good. If I didn't have a sense of humour about it then I'd probably beat myself up a wee bit. But I'll have to take a knock on the chin professionally and say that I wasn't quite up to it. But the irony of getting the applause and getting the odd standing ovation when I hit a boundary was never lost on me. I'll remember those fondly.
The batting average was around 4 for a while, which was not completely ridiculous. But when it started coming the other way I wasn't taking much notice. I suppose the number of ducks that I had over my Test career wasn't pretty reading, but what I can say in my defence is that I did turn down a lot of ones!
It was semi tongue-in-cheek but there was a lot of reality in it as well. I didn't get my driver's licence until I was 28. The way cricket practice operated when I started was the bowlers turned up and bowled to the top six or eight and then you went home. That's pretty much how it worked. Now guys take a lot more pride in being multi-skilled. I missed the boat a wee bit on that. But I was always very fit because I would ride to practice.
I think you have to step away from cricket and I'm quite looking forward to that. It will make when I do come back a little more fun and I can do it on my own terms. But I'll always be available to whoever needs me for a chat and a coffee or beer. I'll stay connected in some way but at the moment I think it's best to figure out what else I'm good at and what else I'm passionate for and get into it.
Yes, I've got a wife and two little girls. One is one year old and one is three and a half. They won't know much about me as a cricketer but they'll get to know a lot more about me as a dad, which is good.
Brydon Coverdale is an assistant editor at ESPNcricinfo. He tweets here