Graeme Smith, South Africa's Test captain, has decided what he wants to be when he grows up. A good friend (especially to AB de Villiers), a loving husband and a batsman. More specifically, a one-day batsman.
"If I look at the record I have built up over the years, I am proud of it, but there is still a lot more to do," Smith told ESPNcricinfo in Johannesburg, where he was attending a CSA sponsorship announcement. "The injuries that I've had have mostly affected the ODI format so I am focussing on that."
Since 2008, Smith has had six hand-related injuries, battling tennis elbow and an array of broken bones. Those ailments have kept him out of a significant number of one-day matches in recent times. In the first six years of his career, Smith played an average of 20.8 ODIs a year. That number has reduced to 11.75 over the last four years, including this one.
In some ways, the most remarkable thing about that statistic is that Smith has been playing international cricket for a decade, eight years of which he has spent as captain. It's a length of time that justifies thoughts of reinvention, something that Smith has been working on. He stepped down as Twenty20 captain in August last year and relinquished the one-day leadership after the 2011 World Cup, to give him more time to focus on batting.
"Injuries, combined with the pressures of captaincy, may have inhibited my batting," he said. "At the moment I am just concentrating on getting some confidence back. I know that I've never been the most elegant batter, but I've always had self-belief. I need to build up some confidence."
With his place in the ODI side no longer secure, Smith's form in the shorter version of the game is under scrutiny and recent performances are not in his favour. His average of 28.25 in 2011 is a big step-down from his career average of 39.25, and is at its lowest since 2006. He has not scored an ODI century since 2009, when he made 141 in a losing cause against England during the Champions Trophy. He was also not able to clock up a half-century at the World Cup and his failure to return home with the rest of the squad at the end of March saw him heavily criticised by the South African public. He has since had a knee operation and has only been able to train for the past three weeks.
"The World Cup was one of the darkest places I have been in my career," he said. "I've had some time to press the reset button and I'm looking forward to the new season." It will be a season of change, and freedom, for Smith, who will no longer feel the weight of the captain's armband. "After being captain in all three formats, I can now focus on myself. It's going to be a big season for me."
With expectation of a different sort hanging over him, Smith believes that in former opening batting partner, Gary Kirsten he will have an ideal mentor and challenger. "When we played together Gary and I had a deal that whoever scored more runs in the season would take the other one out for dinner. I always ended up paying for dinner," he said jokingly. Kirsten can't make deals like that anymore but he will "bring a lot of common sense to the side and will bring the best out of players".
Having basically grown up being the captain gave Smith the space to mature and develop while leading, an opportunity not a lot of people get. "When I started in the job, I was 22, and I didn't have the experience in terms of relationships. I learnt how to allow each guy the space to grow and feel comfortable, and it helped having good guys around."
Now, Smith has to be that good guy, the one who will provide de Villiers with advice when needed and then back off at the right time. "I will always been an ally for him, but it's important that he forges his own way," Smith said. He believes that zoning in on his own game will allow de Villiers to have the space he needs to build a team that will have this ethos and that Smith will be able to fit into that as someone who will "score lots of runs," for de Villiers.
Smith remains South Africa's Test captain and the coming series against Australia and Sri Lanka are foremost in his mind, as South Africa aim to challenge England for the No.1 ranking. "I see it as a season filled with prospects, in some ways similar to the 2008-09 season." South Africa beat Australia in Australia for the first time then, getting one over the No.1 team in the world, although their ranking did not change. The over-riding image of that tour was Smith walking out to bat with a broken hand. Smith the batsman, the same one he wants to become now.
Firdose Moonda is ESPNcricinfo's South Africa correspondent